The diary of an Artist: "In My Strength"
- Susanna Zema
- Jan 16, 2024
- 3 min read
Amid the pandemic chaos, my artistic journey began—an unpredictable ride filled with unexpected challenges and moments of profound self-discovery. This is a testament to the courage and faith required to navigate the twists and turns of life.
At the onset, my art was a simple retreat—a therapeutic practice with pens and pencils, a silent healer of old wounds. As time unfurled, this refuge evolved into a vibrant exploration, where new materials and subjects became gateways to the unexplored realms of my creativity. Today, I find myself in a more conscious phase—a period of deliberate improvement, refining my skills, and earnestly seeking my authentic artistic voice.
Challenges emerged not merely as stumbling blocks but as stepping stones to growth. From wrestling with self-doubt to fearing the judgment of my art, each challenge served as a crucible, forging the resilience that now breathes through my work.
My venture into the realm of creativity required more than mere artistic courage; it demanded a profound exploration of self amidst the risks and pivotal choices that defined this chapter of my life. The conventional boundaries of a 9-5 job became increasingly suffocating, clashing with the innate desire to authentically express myself unbridled by the constraints of duties and the stresses accompanying a path I was no longer willing to force myself down.
Faced with this crossroads, I made a choice that echoed with the spirit of liberation. It wasn't merely a shift from full-time to part-time; it was a declaration of independence, a bold step towards the life I had long yearned for. Empowered by an inner strength that seemed to transcend the mundane, I embraced the uncertainty with open arms.
During this introspective phase, the veil of societal pressure lifted from my perception of success. I came to the profound realization that real success wasn't a predetermined trajectory. Instead, it is a journey defined by personal fulfilment and genuine happiness.
A pivotal moment materialized within the confines of my 9-5 job—a job that would push me to the edges and prompt a life-altering choice. The looming threat of a layoff became a catalyst for profound reflection.
But navigating this journey doesn't come without its share of challenges.
"The mind is a curious place to get lost" - jgpartworker
Conversations with family and friends, riddled with scepticism, transformed into a canvas of understanding and acceptance. It wasn't just about explaining my decisions; it was about sharing the essence of my journey—a journey fuelled by an unwavering belief that happiness is not confined to the structured lanes of a 9-5 existence.
Within this dialogue, I found the strength to stand by decisions that resonated authentically with my aspirations.
The road ahead, though shrouded in uncertainty, is illuminated by the spirit of "In My Strength."

"In my strength", Oil on canvas, 40x50 cm, 2024
It's not merely an affirmation; it's a pulsating energy that infuses every stroke of my art—a testament to resilience, an unwavering belief, and a profound faith that, despite the storms, I will navigate my way.
As the journey unfolds, I realise it's not just a personal expedition; it's an odyssey meant to inspire. The challenges encountered aren't roadblocks but chapters in a story of liberation. I hope that this narrative serves as an encouragement for others to embrace your unique paths, transcend societal expectations, and heed the call of your true passions.
This is not just a story—it's an anthem for anyone yearning to break free from the shackles of conformity, forge their path, and find strength in the pursuit of their deepest desires.
It also represents my continuous journey towards resilience, self-discovery, and adaptation to significant changes in life. This phrase not only reflects the power embedded in my art but also serves as a constant reminder that my creative pursuits are not a deviation but a purposeful journey towards personal authenticity. Acknowledging the inherent potency of my art, I understand that there is still work to be done to refine my craftsmanship and unearth my true artistic voice. This ongoing journey, though challenging, is an affirmation that every brushstroke and every moment spent creating is forging a path towards a life lived unapologetically on my terms.
Looking forward, I am conscious that the journey demands intensified focus, more risks, and embracing challenges with faith as opportunities for growth, even when readiness feels elusive. But for whoever needs to hear this: "I encourage you not to judge your idea of success and happiness compared to societal norms. Instead, I urge you to listen to the voice within their hearts, unearthing your unique path."
With love ✨,
Susanna
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